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 Sunday, April 04, 2010 @ 1:11 AM  weeks had just past in a blink.. time is ticking every seconds... these few Days, many things had went through my mind ... every time when I got on My bed... i just cant get myself to slp ... Just had a random feeling... that I am still a freshie in NYP every thing to me is just so unfamiliar... no friends, new environment, new challenges waiting for me... but that is not the case... i had already went through the 3 Years in NYP maybe I am just too afraid to face the reality? can I just Have everything maintained in this state?? nobody know how afraid am I now... I Just nid a place to rant my feelings... cos i have no one to talk to ... every one is just so busy with their lives... some maybe had even forgotten my existence.... You messed up My life and you just leave Like that ... u just dunno how hurt am i when my friends told mi all the possible things that u are thinking and doing ... dun u think U owe mi some explanations On the things that u did to Mi ? you just came into My life without even noticing it... everything is YOU YOU YOU I felt really hurt when you say that u "wont bother me anymore" i really wonder what am i to you? Ask me to WAIT WAIT and WAIT u are keeping me in suspense for too long ... Do u know how torturing it is? For once you were so caring towards me... and the other Moment there is No news from you... And the way you talk to me had also changed... I felt that you are just trying to reply back .... cause you are annoyed... Or am I too used to it to have you by my side? Is it that I am no use for you and u re Now dumping Me aside? Cos when we are still schooling, the way u treated mi is different... Dun u find it too ? FOR GOD SAKE, I am oso a human.. i oso got my feelings ... WHO ARE U TO MANIPULATE WITH THIS FEELING OF MINE? I really wish to know wad are U thinking ... can u please help to solve this mystery? I just wish to solve this as soon as possible... but wad will happen next? maybe we Wont be at this state? things will change.. you may choose to leave me... and dun regard me as anithing ... back to the time where we Dunno each other at all ... i am well prepared for it ... it may hurt a little at the start .. but time may heal every thing ... Sorry that i get too Emotional at this moment .. but it had been troubling for a pretty long time ... but I am afraid to approach you... I dun care whether you might / might not be reading this.. but i just need a place to pour every thing out ... It is very hard to keep my feelings .... but i dunno who to go to .... cause I myself dunno how to explain all these... and I have got No Idea how to explain these In words... My Life Is just so screwed... Since I am going into the working world soon ... think i will just concentrate and bury myself In work to stop myself from thinking too much ... Hope Every thing is fine for u |
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I'm Yvonne Yong. Existing for Twenty years now. I love my friends & family. Movie-ing, shopping and chilling out with my friends are my favourite pastime. Successfully graduated from Singapore Accountancy Academy - ACCA Currently working in Ernst & Young since 5th April 2010 |
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