jus now when i was searching for my things, i found this diary which my mother wrote

she write a lot of things in the diary.. and she kip repeating that she wan to leave this house...

cause of what my father did to her....

Jus Not too long ago.

my mum found out that my father had a china woman 

*wtf china woman*

my mother start writing diary on the 16 sept.

the Main reason is becos she had bottle up too much thing and she dunno who to talk to therefore writing the diary.

ever since that case. everytime my mother see cheena woman, she hates it.

the cheena only come here to cheat other people money . and i think my father had already gave that bitch quite a sum?? and jus becos of that bitch . my parents quarrel...

this is wad my mother wrote:

after the quarrel, i jus wish to end my life. but why my husband cant feel the pain i am feeling?

he did such a thing to mi and he act seems like nth ? I cant share my husband with other woman. althought he had promised mi not the go in contact with the cheena anymore, but i still saw him calling her. and it;s not only 1 time. he Had been cheaeing mi. i realli dun understand why people sucide whenever they cant think of any solutions, now I understand. Nobody understand therefore suicide is the best. i wonder whether he still have feelings for mi? cause i always cant feel his care and love. i dunno whr am i not good enuf. i dun wish my children to lose this family. i realli dunno wad to do already.... i cant possible dun care my Husband. why is my husband so dumb? wake up my husband, i am realli afraid that we will lose this family. cherish pls. 

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as a daughter wad will u feel when u saw this?

she is trying very hard to kip this family in place . 

i am jus afraid that if she work too hard, she cant take it =(

from the diary, i can realli feel that she is very lost on wad to do .

and she dint even hav a person to talk to...

but I realli dunno wad to do .. 

i am also lost. when i see all those that she writes.

i realli dunno wad to do now..

rmb a few days ago I was quarrling with My mum over the Computer.?

she oso wrote some thing

24-09-08

very very very angry 

bought the desktop, and i cant even play . 

my daughter even give My black face to see.

养女儿没用, 跟老爸一样. 要看脸色. 疼也没用. 全部都一样, 真的心痛. 很烦很想不要这个家了. 女儿根本没有把我放在心上. 一个老公, 一个女儿都一样. 真的很失败. 很想不要做人了. 不知道何时会爆发. 

24-09-08, 2242

i dint meant to do tat

i know she is very 脆弱 le..

but some times i jus cant ctrol myself.

after that quarrel .. i did sry . cause i Know I had hurt her =(

wad i am not a person that will show Myself and feeling to other people.

the whole Diary, realli have alot of her feeling and wad she wish to do to end her life. or leave this house.

there was once, she asked mi .

if one day she had leave the hse.

when should i go to find her.

i had no answer, she dint even wan to tell mi when i asked her.

i am now very very very very Lost and sad. ...

how i wish time can turn back.